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"Alfred Marshall
says that prices are influenced by the market forces of demand and supply,"
Ms. Simon droned on.
I was sleepy. I had
been up all night, watching movies with Sheena and Neeta. It had been
a wonderful party at their place. I had enjoyed myself. And I could not
believe it when Akshay had asked me to dance with him. And I had let myself
go.
And now, the hangover
was taking its toll on me. I could barely keep my eyes open. Sometime
in between, I heard Ms. Simon admonishing Vikky for throwing a paper ball
at her.
~*~
He was chasing me
again. And I was running like a deranged maniac. There was a gawking laceration
on my abdomen and blood was flowing out of it. I was semi-conscious, trying
to get away from the bloodthirsty devil. I ran and ran until I was sure
that I had shaken him off my back. Suddenly, I clenched my fist and turned
around, as I felt a reverberating blow on my face.
I woke up with a
start. I found the anxious faces of Ms. Simon and all my classmates peering
down at me. I looked around, confused.
I found myself lying
on the ground, in the college corridor that led to the hostel. I was bathed
in sweat, and when I looked down at my palm, I gasped. There was a knife
in my hand.
"Wh
what
happened?" I stuttered.
"That's what
we would like to know, Sharon," said Ms. Simon sternly.
A few hours later,
I was in Dr. Ranjan's clinic. Ms. Simon was seated across the table. Sister
Filomina, the warden, was also with us.
"Well, Sharon
is suffering from a disease called somnambulism, which is a sleep disorder
characterized by walking or other activity while seemingly still asleep,"
said Dr. Ranjan.
Ms. Simon and Sr.
Filomina exchanged worried glances. The doctor went on, "If you recollect,
Sharon insisted on getting a single room in the hostel when she joined.
And she paid more money to see that she got one for herself. That was
because she did not want anyone to know about her problem."
"But how do
you know, doctor?" asked Sister Filomina.
"I checked the
hostel records. And I did a lot of background work subsequent to my meeting
with Sharon," said the doctor with a smile.
He looked at me.
I was looking at him with a shocked expression that seemed to accuse him
blatantly of spying on me behind my back. His smile faded, and he said
softly, "Sharon, I am only trying to help you. At times, when I need
to get to the bottom of an issue, my profession warrants that I do some
sleuthing. I am sorry to have invaded into your privacy, if you think
so, but I would still maintain that it was essential."
"What else have
you been doing behind my back," I spat venomously.
"Relax Sharon,"
he said calmly. "I did not do anything with the intention of hurting
your sentiments or troubling you. I followed you last week, and kept an
eye on your hostel room."
"What?"
I was aghast. This was the last thing I had expected from someone like
Dr. Ranjan!
He went on, "That
night, I noticed you coming out of your room around midnight, apparently
walking in a trance. You walked to the field adjacent to the corridor
that joins the classroom section to the hostel building. And there, you
started digging, just beneath the banyan tree near the compound wall.
And that's where you got the knife from, every time you woke up."
I was trembling by
now. It was too hard to believe.
"And then, you
went back into the room. I could not see anything for a few minutes after
that. I guessed that you might have woken up to find the knife and then
fallen asleep again. Because, a few minutes later, I saw you coming out
of your room again, in the same hypnotic state. You walked up to the same
tree, and buried the knife back in the same place."
He looked at my quivering
body and tremulous expression, and asked, "Sharon, don't you want
your problem to be solved? Don't you want to lead a normal, happy life
again?"
I nodded slowly.
I suddenly realized that I had approached him for help, and not the other
way round. He did have every right to spy on me, in order to solve the
mystery. Besides, he had taken the trouble to stay awake all night trying
to piece together the bits of the jigsaw puzzle called "my life."
"So do you want
to know the whole story?" he asked mysteriously.
"You mean, you
know what my problem is?" I asked, utterly bewildered.
He smiled. Then he
said, "Yes, Sharon. I know."
"Sharon, somnambulism
usually involves baseless hallucinations and mental fantasies based on
unfulfilled desires of the patient, stemming from the subconscious mind.
However, in your case, it is not purely a figment of your imagination.
Your nightmares are not just empty dreams. They are real pictures of something
that transpired a long while ago. They are shadows from your past."
He paused.
I was too stunned
to even move. What was he trying to say?
Dr. Ranjan got up
from his chair and walked up to where I was seated. He sat down gingerly
beside me, and said, "Sharon
"
I looked at him with
fear in my eyes. Surely, I was not prepared for what he was about to say.
"Sharon, my
child
When you were a baby, your parents were killed. They were
brutally murdered by your mother's relatives simply because of the fact
that they had an inter-religious marriage against the wishes of their
parents."
I gasped. All these
years, I had lived under the impression that my parents had died in an
accident, and that was how I had landed in the orphanage, which had taken
care of me, educated me and brought me up. This was too much of a blow.
He continued, "They
were both stabbed to death, and you witnessed the whole ghastly episode.
You were just ten months old then, and the images of those brutes hacking
your parents to death apparently got etched in your memory. And those
terrible memories come back to haunt you to this day."
Dr. Ranjan went on,
"Sharon, I would not have told you this even today. But then, I think
the only solution to your problem is to accept the truth and consciously
make an effort to get over it. I know it will be difficult, but not impossible.
I will help you to get over it. And then, you can lead a normal, happy
life."
I was crying hysterically.
Dr. Ranjan motioned Ms. Simon and Sr. Filomina to step out. Then he came
to me and said gently, "Sharon, do you know what you need the most
at this point?"
I shook my head.
He looked at me and said, "A friend."
Just then, the door
to his chamber opened, and the most unexpected person stepped in. I snorted
in amazement, "Akshay!"
"Yes, Sharon.
Akshay is here to help you. And that is not because I asked him to. It
is because he cares about you. He is your true friend Sharon, and I am
sure that you'll bounce back to normalcy with his help and support,"
said Dr. Ranjan.
I could not believe
what I had just heard. I looked at Akshay and smiled. He smiled back.
And I realized that it was a genuine, warm smile that seemed to say, "Sharon,
I care."
~*~
And sure enough,
a few months later, I stopped getting those nightmares completely. Whether
it was the doctor's medication or Akshay's support that worked wonders,
is a subject worth contemplation. A couple of years later, Akshay proposed
marriage, and I was simply delighted.
Seven years later
"Sharon, give
me coffee!" ordered Akshay, in one of his MCP tones.
"!!#$!! You
lazy bum, come and get your own coffee! I need to get the baby in bed
"
I retorted like the typical wife.
"Oh Sharon!
Be the ideal wife
serve me coffee
" mocked Akshay in a
complaining tone.
And together, we
laughed.
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