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Drip. Drip. Drip.
The leak of the broken water pipe pounded in 'Rhino's' head like one
of Satan's own drums. Before long, the rhythm of the throbbing pain rocked
his thoughts straight to hell.
"Nine years!
Nine wonderful years
spent swimming in the cesspool of society.
Surrounded by everything
from murderers to child molesters, each one an innocent man.
What bullshit! They'd
slit their own mother's throat for a smoke.
Hah, I guess it is
funny. I haven't met an innocent man in this hole yet.
And everybody's a
tough guy. Yeah, everybody's gotta try his hand at the top seat.
But no, it's not
like years ago
like when I first walked in here.
There was honor then.
Guys knew how to
throw hands and the one who wanted it more, he came out on top.
Not today though.
Today, the skinners, the diddlers, all the twisted freaks travel in packs,
each one lugging a blade. Each one bragging of some fabricated bank robbery
or kidnapping - anything to conceal the truth. The young gang bangers,
the bikers, the bugs - groups of racists who roam this concrete jungle
like a walking powder keg.
Shit, everybody's
gotta take a weapon into battle. Broomsticks, shards of glass, razor blades
- anything to give them the edge. But not me. No. I've always relied on
just my hands.
And respect - Damn!
That went through the barbed wire long ago.
Even the guys who
stayed strong, stayed solid, have no problem dropping a dime when there's
something in it for them. And they call it survival?
I call'em rats! And
there's more of the two-legged kind than the four-legged bastards I share
my dinner with.
But me, I'm halfway
there. Eleven more and I wrap
"
Drip. Drip. Drip.
The big man emerged
from his daydream to discover he was still living the nightmare. His head
felt like it was going to explode.
"
eleven
more years of stink. The smell of piss and shit so bad, you can taste
it.
Eleven more years
of punks trying to test my gut. Watching the strong, no matter how, take
anything they want. And the weak - take even more from the weaker.
Each day surrounded
by conmen, hit men, pimps and the queens who fill their pockets. Men so
unpredictable - they would just as soon jam a pen in your eye than give
you the time of day. And in this pit, everybody can spare a little time.
But it's the ones
with AIDS who scare the shit out of me. Of course, nobody can know who
they are. That has to stay confidential.
Nope, it's not like
years ago when you could bleed on the floor with a guy and not have to
worry you were just handed a death sentence.
Frigin' junkies!
They should house'em in their own pen. Let'em tuck the drugs up their
assholes somewhere else. God knows they have no problem getting the shit
in here, no matter who tries to stop it.
I guess that's the
wonder of the human will. Where there's that will, some ingenious bastard
will always concoct some hare-brain scheme and get it in.
And the way I see
it, there's only two ways out of this house of horrors: Escape or suicide.
I've witnessed both. But not me. No, I'll walk out the same way I walked
in.
Yep. Nine down and
eleven more to go.
Eleven more Thanksgivings
- just sitting and counting the cockroaches, most of which should outlive
me.
Eleven more Christmas
hidden behind a wall.
Almost halfway there
"
A portable radio
squelched once, calling 'Rhino's' attention back to reality. A Correction
Officer stood over him and for a moment, the sight startled him.
"What's your
problem," the smaller man asked, "everything O.K.?"
Michael 'Rhino' Evans
stood, unhooked his radio and handed it over to his second shift relief.
"The boys were quiet today. You might want to keep an eye on Pauli
Patricio, though. It looks like he's getting ready to strong-arm the new
guy, Gisherman. The nut just got admitted yesterday and from what I can
tell, he doesn't look like he's going to do too well in his new home."
He chuckled and added, "Other than that, the count's the same - seventy-five
living, breathing convicts."
Jack Butler laughed,
then turned to face the block.
"Oh, Jack,"
Michael said, as he opened the heavy steel door, "if you get a chance,
call maintenance. Let's see if we can get that water pipe fixed. It's
driving me nuts!"
On his commute home,
Michael continued to dwell on his chosen profession and the bizarre warehouse
he spent his every workday locked within. He couldn't help it. It was
that consuming. "It's just another day at work," most would
say. Michael didn't want to hear it anymore. He knew better.
For him, concealed
behind the tons of concrete, bricks and steel, reality took on a horrifying
appearance. Time silently stood still within the hidden jungle, while
desperate cries of men fell upon deaf walls. Shunned by a self-sedated
world, yesterday knew no memories, today was blind and tomorrow tasted
of broken glass. Like the caches of lethal weapons and plentiful drugs,
these truths were also hidden well. Somewhere along the way, razor wire
had replaced a once blue horizon, while a single gun tower became the
only beacon of hope.
Michael solemnly
shook his head. Protected by only the small tin badge above his left breast
pocket, his future was one where getting the edge could mean certain death
and staying on top equaled another day in hell. In the air of an August
afternoon, it chilled the bones.
Pulling into the
parking lot of Muckey's Liquor Store, Michael experienced one final sobering
thought. "I wonder what other people think about when they drive
home from work?"
Even old man Muckey
didn't know.
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