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It was a late Saturday
morning, the kind where children absorbed hours of silly cartoons, while
Dads tended to their leaf-covered lawns. Jake was happy that both would
be taking a break from the norm. All three kids were away at school and
Emma, at her mother's. Jake wasn't about to waste the rare opportunity
of peace with a roaring lawn mower. Instead, he decided to lazily snoop
around the house for things he'd forgotten to miss.
The attic was too
damn hot and musty to hang around. The garage was much too cluttered to
even consider diving in. The hallway closet proved perfect. With only
one peek, the treasure hunt paid off. It was an old photo album covered
in gaudy gold foil. Jake sat down with a tall glass of iced tea and flipped
through its bent pages. Each picture was like rediscovering his own life
through the eyes of his children...
The album began with
the three miracles of birth that God and Emma pulled off together. Michael,
the first born, was actually the smallest, weighing in at 6 pounds, 11
ounces. The tiny blue knitted cap covered his cone head and Jake's eyes
swelled to see it again. He was so beautiful. Max came next and Jake could
still feel the moment he'd fallen in love with him. Then, along came Andrea,
the porker. At 9 pounds even, Jake had to laugh, recalling everyone's
initial reaction at the maternity ward window, "She's so beautiful
and so dainty." Hardly! Jake wiped his eyes. They were all beautiful,
each one of them with their blue eyes and light hair; true products of
parents with the same.
In the early days,
Emma insisted on catching everything on film. What Jake didn't realize
was that at one point, she rearranged the photos according to event, not
chronological order. It seemed strange, but as he sifted through, he decided
he liked it. He could actually see his three children growing up on each
page turned.
After capturing the
three trips home from the hospital, Emma caught the grubby faces of people
learning to eat on their own. She snapped their first steps and Jake laughed
aloud when he spotted a photo that was supposed to show Max speaking his
first word. "Dada," the little boy grunted, as Emma knelt right
in his face, making him see spots. The red in his eyes was nothing compared
to the crying that took place afterward.
The next series was
devoted to Christmas. There were brilliant glossies of Jake stringing
lights on some sad-looking trees with his three favorite little people.
For the first few years, the kids were covered in tinsel, their eyes beaming
in anticipation of a fat man in a red suit. Christmas mornings began with
a mountain of unwrapped gifts neatly stacked beneath decorated evergreens.
Then, the squinted eyes of children, not yet awake, would follow. They
were dressed in different color feet pajamas and though they looked innocent,
Jake now held evidence that proved differently. The living room, once
orderly, became overrun with balls of red and green wrapping paper. Amidst
this, hints of children jumped from one toy to the next. "Oh God,"
Jake said aloud. There were even a few surprise shots of him. He always
looked the same: Dead. He must have enjoyed too much eggnog back then.
Grinning, he sighed, "Those were the days!"
Birthdays became
Emma's next theme. Glowing chocolate cakes shimmered from the pages and
behind each one, the pucker of a child could be found. Strangely, that's
all the kids ever blew out, homemade chocolate cakes. The presents that
followed, year-after-year, showed the changing styles of fashion. Braces,
corrective lenses and various haircuts, defining the days of rebellion,
were trapped in time. Jake shook his head. He could remember when a trip
to John Rodrigues, the barber, was like going to see the dentist. It was
amazing. Everyone looked so young; Emma, Buddy, even those who no longer
lived looked like kids themselves. Time could be cruel. Turning the page,
Jake caught one last glimpse of a pointy party hat and the face of sheer
exhaustion. He chuckled. It was the Evans' family hostess; Emma.
The first pictures
of the kids heading off to school were priceless. Each waited at the bus
stop in new clothes, holding their lunch boxes and willing themselves
to be strong in the face of the unknown. Jake's chest swelled with an
age-old pride.
Summer vacations
began with day trips. There were poses taken in front of museums, amusement
parks, zoos and the aquarium. One summer, he and Emma went all out and
hit every highlight in New Hampshire. The yellow dog-eared photos revealed
the Old Man in the Mountain, Clark's Trading Post, with its dancing bears,
Santa's Village and the Polar Caves. In five long days, they saw it all
and the pictures betrayed all the energy spent. Emma captured each warm
moment. As the kids got older and money was easier to come by, Florida
replaced New Hampshire, as Magic Mountain was preferred over the White
Mountains. Staring hard at the memories, Jake couldn't decide which were
more fun. Sometimes, it truly felt like they had more with less. There
was more need for imagination and it was better appreciated. In any event,
the album proved a long-standing theory that Jake believed. Summer vacations
weren't relaxing. They were missions.
Little League pictures
showed Michael and Max in their respective striped uniforms. Max had the
arm of a pitcher, while Michael guided his little brother from behind
the plate. Andrea's dance recitals were held during that same period of
time. "Sweet Lord, the four hour dance recitals," Jake recalled,
aloud, "filled with little girls who were so adorable, but didn't
have the rhythm of a slug."
Next were the school
plays. Michael never lived down his role as Peter Pan and the green tights
that made him famous. Max made a distinguished Abe Lincoln and for whatever
reason, Andrea never made it beyond the roles of talking trees and walking
snowflakes. Jake had to laugh. It seemed like only yesterday.
Toward the middle
of the picture show, Michael and Max sat up in hospital beds, both eating
Popsicles. They had gotten their tonsils removed at the same time and
according to the photos, Andrea was the only one who did the crying. As
usual, the baby of the family must have felt left out. Cards and gifts
filled the window sill and looking back at the boys, Jake had to wonder:
In those days, when they pulled tonsils out as quick as rotten teeth,
Emma must have landed a 2 for 1 sale.
Appropriately enough,
the next photos were of Michael playing hockey. It didn't take him two
months before he got one of his own teeth knocked out, costing Jake ten
hours of overtime to replace it. Even when things went well, it was an
expensive sport and with Michael, probably more so than for other kids.
By the time he was twelve, other kids at school branded him every nickname
from "Bull" to "Tiny." Michael never missed many meals
and looking at the photos, it was also clear that he missed few opportunities
to slam an opponent into the glass. Jake grinned. He could remember having
to conceal his primitive pride. Though he hated to admit it, it was nice
having a son who had no problem getting into the mix, even if it did cost
his father ten hours of extra labor.
Next came Andrea's
first shots on the volleyball court. Who would have ever guessed she'd
go as far as she did? At 14, she was already lanky and as determined as
any adult Jake ever met. Emma must have shared Jake's admiration. There
were quite a few volleyball photos. Jake absorbed each one and went on.
Picture after picture,
Jake realized that his favorites were not the ones in which the kids were
ordered to pose. The best were those they never expected. A photo of Max,
smiling on the potty like he had just learned the secret to world peace,
was invaluable. From the camouflage of sand dunes, there were also shots
taken at the beach. Jake recalled carrying the camera that day. He got
every inch of Emma buried from head-to-toe before kidding her that, if
he could cook well enough to keep the kids alive, she would be left for
the buzzards. He didn't have to remember her face. The photo spoke volumes.
The Halloween costumes
got 'cooler' with each passing year, as Superman was gladly traded in
for different members of KISS. At summer cookouts, when water balloons
soaked the camera, Emma screamed until Jake took chase. She was pretty
quick back then. Through the pages, Jake could still hear her laughter.
Tiny bums in bathtub
shots were almost as good as those of sleeping angels. Caught lying on
their Dad's chest, Jake could still remember awaking to find his babies
snuggled against him. It was then that he knew - if only for a moment
- life could be perfect.
There were others,
like Michael, trying to ride the poor dog that lasted only three weeks
with the family. Buttons was already sick when they picked him out at
the animal shelter. The only thing the mutt really gave them was an early
understanding of the incredible feelings of loss accompanied by death.
Photos of three grinning
snow angels almost had Jake weeping. He couldn't help it. Emma really
did compile a portfolio of love; a growing and maturing book of life.
First cars and the
smiles of freedom beamed at the back of the book, while Jake and the children's
nervous mother concealed their fears of doom. Prom pictures captured Andrea
in a beautiful pink lace dress, while her corsage was handed over by a
young trembling hand. Jake had to chuckle. He didn't want to stare the
boy down. He just couldn't help it. Michael and Max looked like men in
their tuxedos. For whatever reason, Prom night was the time Jake chose
for "The Talk." As he remembered, he was a decade too late with
the both of them. They'd already learned everything they needed to know
before pigtails were traded in for perms and cowlicks, pushed down with
hair gel. "Where did the time go?" he whimpered to himself.
It seemed so unfair, yet he knew better than dare to complain. He and
Emma had enjoyed every moment.
The album ended with
each high school graduation. While the kids paraded across the stage in
robes and tassels, Emma boxed out other parents for a good shot of her
own. Long before the video camera became popular, Emma could have given
any paparazzi a run for his money. She was ferocious when it came to her
children. She was just as fierce when it came to capturing the precious
moments that might be enjoyed on a lazy Saturday morning somewhere down
the road.
As Michael attended
Westfield State to study Criminal Justice and Max lived on campus at the
University of Massachusetts - Amherst, Andrea ran off to UCONN to show
the world the most powerful volleyball serve they'd ever seen. And that
was it. Their father closed the cover on three magical childhoods.
Jake sat back, wiped
his eyes and smiled. He now understood why Emma wrapped the photo album
in gold. Whether the world recognized it or not, for better than twenty
years, he and his wife lived as the wealthiest people on earth.
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